In the spirit of getting back on my original blog schedule, I'm typing this up! Unfortunately there's relatively little to say. Well, I suppose that's not true. There's stuff to say, but none of it very positive or productive. I haven't done much editing to my manuscript. In fact I've barely looked at it since the end of November. I've been going against all of my own (and others) advice by waiting for the "mood" to hit me. I haven't had any motivation to write (or edit) and frankly, it's so much easier to read. Part of it is also thinking that it won't be good enough. Like if I leave it blank, the unwritten possibilities are so much better than anything I could ever come up with. Winter's kind of put me in that funk, I guess.
The whole winter thing is also related to finals which is also related to skipping my first writers circle in over a year. It was a bummer, but I knew the time was better spent studying. Plus I don't think I would've gotten much out of the meeting; I've been rather tentative to present my crappy manuscript to anyone, let alone a group of seniors who I don't really know.
Without Ebony (hello, title change #4!) ideas for other stories have begun to peek out their little fluffy muse-like little heads. There's this one bit for a Greek-myth-type romance I've been turning over for a while now. Maybe I'll pen it out and try and fix it up and send it off to somewhere. I haven't got high expectations, but I figure I might as well give it a go. Hope for the best, plan for the worst, ya know? Even if it doesn't pan out, it's an interesting idea (at least, in my head it is). I guess I'll figure it out later. V-day isn't until the 14th of Feb, anyway.
And on a side note, I didn't go to the bookstore. I really should've, I know. But I felt kind of crappy. Bad day. Bad week. Bad year, so far. In the end I just wanted to go home. I know buying a book would've made me feel better but I was so tired. Perhaps I'll visit the library tomorrow. Or maybe I can review the book that I'm re-reading now. I'll figure something out later. Yeah, okay, I say 'later' a lot, but this is the one thing I feel like I don't have to constantly bully and force and contort into exactly what its supposed to be.
That's enough of my babbling for now :)
-MJ
I totally know that feeling. But I'll tell you right now that it's best to keep pushing on, even though sometimes it hurts. The fun thing about editing is that you can take something that might be really raw and you can make it better. And having been through funks, and dealt with a boy with extream funks, I promise that the best way out of them isn't to wait, it's to push through and just get things done.
ReplyDeleteP.S. We did miss you at writer's group.